75 days and counting....

So we stand at 75 days until the hubs is home. I am SOOOO excited. I can't wait to see him again. I know the boys are missing thier daddy alot - even if they don't say it! But I sure hope I can manage to save some serious cash before he gets home so he can take extra time off from work. Heres hoping I can do it.

Well I am taking a break from working on the house... I think I can't do much more until I get some furniture on there. Well other than cleaning carpets... and it's too hot to go do that right now....

So excited... and yet NOT

I am so excited that Jeff will be home in less than 3 months. Yet at the same time I can't help but feel mad, because some of his unit will be home sooner. I don't begrudge them thier excitement, It's just a hard pill to swallow that Jeff will be in the last group of guys to come home.  But I guess this gives me more time to save money and more time to get our house in order.

Which -- bring me to more exciting stuff. I found a house to rent. YAY!!! Now we just need to move all our stuff in... it's a slow process but it's getting there. :)

Weight loss had been going good. I have been losing 2 punds a week. Which is insanely awesome. If I keep it up I will be done another 20lbs by the time Jeff gets home. Wahoo... Goal weight is between 140 and 160... but for now I am aiming to be under 200lbs by New years. I think I can do it!

Double digits...

Oh yeah this deployments countdown is FINALLY in the double digits. We have 98 days until the hubs is home again! I cannot wait. The boys can't wait. It has been a long 9 months. And we are anxious to get back out family routine. Now I jsut need to find us a house. Whether rental or not... we need a home of our own. Where Jeff and I can settle in with our boys and start making some new memories together post deployment!

In other news I am down a few pounds to 249lbs. So excited. I have almost lost 10% of my weight. It doens't seem like much but a year ago I was sitting large at 281 lbs, and while it is has taken time... and has been slow going for much of it, I think I have finaly found my grove and have realized that for me I have to track my food in a food journal. And that for the most part I need to be aware of how many calories I am consuming. Right now I am at 1680 calories a day for weight loss, and that has me losing a pound a week... I want it to be more but it won't be until I get in more activity. I need to seriously start working out during the day.

With that said I think I am going to start the C25K program ... a little skeptical about actually doing it, but I need to be commited to weight loss and a more active lifestyle.

Where have I been....

In my own little world, struggling... to lose weight, struggling to keep sane, struggling with my boys, struggling with the emotions and this deployment.

Weight loss has been so hard, keeping on track and following the rules of healthy eating is even harder. I am following weight watchers, and bought a Mytrak slim coach, a Wii fit... I HAVE ALL THE TOOLS... but I am just not using them -- and I need too -- So my goal is to get active and get eating better. Starting with surrouding myself with healthier foods. So I am have started to overhaul our eating habits and looking up healthier versions of our fave foods.

And I am going to keep the boys busy with the zoo, aquarium and parks. We have the Nelson Ledges 5 minutes from us... and as long as the weather is nice we will be there hiking. What a great way to get a workout and have fun.

Losing Weight is hard to do...

It really is, maybe for some it's not that hard. I mean the basic principles are easy, eat healthy and exercise more. I get... but for someone who has been overweight most of their life, it's sometimes hard to always eat healthier. Maybe that's what I love about Weight Watchers, you can still have the pizza and wings, but you learn to eat in moderation so that your not going over your points. And I am getting better with the exercise. And I guess that is where the Biggest Loser slim coach comes in, at the beginning of the day it is red, and when you've met your goals (you can go to their website and set them up) it turns green. Now I love watching it go from red to green. But this first week it's just learning my lifestyle it says. So I am hoping that next week it gets a bit harder to turn green so that I am pushing myself to be more active.

I have a goal. And I want to reach it. I know my hubby says he doesn't care how much weight I lose, but I do. I want to feel more confident in my body. And be more active for my kids.


So I am crazy excited... for years since I was little, I had a chipped tooth that got fixed, and since than it was been yellow. And for years I have wanted to get a veneer or something to fix it. Well I finally made an appointment with a dentist that does veneers, so monday I go for a normal cleaning and than Weds, I go for the veneer and the whitening, so that all my teeth match the veneer! YAY! I am sooo freaking excited.

It's killing me :(

This deployment is killing me... yeah okay, so maybe I don't let it show ofton. But it is. I miss Jeff terribly, it's getting harder and harder to do things without him. Sitting on the couch reading a book I just wish he was there to hold me while I read. Putting the boys to bed... wish he was here to kiss them good night, and to help comfort them when they are scared. While I love my boys, I love their father just as much. And the last 6 months literally feel like it's been forever since he left. Now I realize I may have seen him twice since leaving in Sept, but let me tell you that seeing your husband for a couple days here and a week at Christmas does not make anyone feel better.

So what brought this post on... a CD of pictures. Jeff has been lifting weights in Afghanistan, so I told him, purely for the reason of seeing the change... to send me some pics shirtless. So I got the CD yesterday, and seeing my shirtless hubby (OMG serious drool worthiness pictures) looking oohhh so good, has be missing him even more. But while I was looking at these pictures he is not smiling in very many of them. Actually I think he only smiled in one. And he sent us a video of his room... make me miss him even more still because I want to be in that room with him, or any room with him. I don't care where, I just WANT YO BE WITH HIM! Sitting there free to talk to him anytime I want and not just when he can call.

Whats worse is we aren't even sure WHEN he will be home. He have a kind of idea, but the unit has not told them a for sure when, supposedly they will be telling them when they will be coming home in a couple weeks. I HOPE!

Didn't make it to the gym...

But I did make it to home depot to buy mulch and garden soil, and than to target to get my Hubbys birthday present. I am gathering it all this week so I can send it to him early next week and hopefully he will get it by his birthday May 15th.

I will say that hauling 10 bags of soil and 5 bags of mulch feels like a workout. I may go for a bike ride in a bit. Even though it is insanely windy!

I also have been a little slack with keeping track of my WW points. So today I bought a bunch of smart ones for breakfast and lunch! Wahoo... that will take out the guess work for those two meals. Thank goodness, because I need to get back to losing good at a steady rate. Next on my agenda it to get in a very good workout! I think I am going to research and find a routine that will be the best workout for me.