Losing Weight is hard to do...

It really is, maybe for some it's not that hard. I mean the basic principles are easy, eat healthy and exercise more. I get... but for someone who has been overweight most of their life, it's sometimes hard to always eat healthier. Maybe that's what I love about Weight Watchers, you can still have the pizza and wings, but you learn to eat in moderation so that your not going over your points. And I am getting better with the exercise. And I guess that is where the Biggest Loser slim coach comes in, at the beginning of the day it is red, and when you've met your goals (you can go to their website and set them up) it turns green. Now I love watching it go from red to green. But this first week it's just learning my lifestyle it says. So I am hoping that next week it gets a bit harder to turn green so that I am pushing myself to be more active.

I have a goal. And I want to reach it. I know my hubby says he doesn't care how much weight I lose, but I do. I want to feel more confident in my body. And be more active for my kids.


So I am crazy excited... for years since I was little, I had a chipped tooth that got fixed, and since than it was been yellow. And for years I have wanted to get a veneer or something to fix it. Well I finally made an appointment with a dentist that does veneers, so monday I go for a normal cleaning and than Weds, I go for the veneer and the whitening, so that all my teeth match the veneer! YAY! I am sooo freaking excited.

It's killing me :(

This deployment is killing me... yeah okay, so maybe I don't let it show ofton. But it is. I miss Jeff terribly, it's getting harder and harder to do things without him. Sitting on the couch reading a book I just wish he was there to hold me while I read. Putting the boys to bed... wish he was here to kiss them good night, and to help comfort them when they are scared. While I love my boys, I love their father just as much. And the last 6 months literally feel like it's been forever since he left. Now I realize I may have seen him twice since leaving in Sept, but let me tell you that seeing your husband for a couple days here and a week at Christmas does not make anyone feel better.

So what brought this post on... a CD of pictures. Jeff has been lifting weights in Afghanistan, so I told him, purely for the reason of seeing the change... to send me some pics shirtless. So I got the CD yesterday, and seeing my shirtless hubby (OMG serious drool worthiness pictures) looking oohhh so good, has be missing him even more. But while I was looking at these pictures he is not smiling in very many of them. Actually I think he only smiled in one. And he sent us a video of his room... make me miss him even more still because I want to be in that room with him, or any room with him. I don't care where, I just WANT YO BE WITH HIM! Sitting there free to talk to him anytime I want and not just when he can call.

Whats worse is we aren't even sure WHEN he will be home. He have a kind of idea, but the unit has not told them a for sure when, supposedly they will be telling them when they will be coming home in a couple weeks. I HOPE!

Didn't make it to the gym...

But I did make it to home depot to buy mulch and garden soil, and than to target to get my Hubbys birthday present. I am gathering it all this week so I can send it to him early next week and hopefully he will get it by his birthday May 15th.

I will say that hauling 10 bags of soil and 5 bags of mulch feels like a workout. I may go for a bike ride in a bit. Even though it is insanely windy!

I also have been a little slack with keeping track of my WW points. So today I bought a bunch of smart ones for breakfast and lunch! Wahoo... that will take out the guess work for those two meals. Thank goodness, because I need to get back to losing good at a steady rate. Next on my agenda it to get in a very good workout! I think I am going to research and find a routine that will be the best workout for me.

Where the heck have I been...?

I have been going crazy. I have been busy, and I have been dealing with trying to get everything together and credit scores to where they need to be so that I can buy a house. I have found the house of my dreams, a cute little ranch with 3 bedrooms, and a 3 car garage on a little under 4 acres. I am hoping that scores will be raised and ready and this house will still be available. But for now, I am on a mission. A mission to save $10000 by Sept 1st. I have things set up to track my progress with our bank that is linked to the savings account, I have looked at what needs paid every month, and what doesn't and I think I can realisticly save $2000 a month.

Heres to hoping... things work out because man do I have plans. I have ideas on repurposing a couple dressers, one to be a TV stand, because I just can't find one that is what I want, and another to be an entryway bench with storage and coat hooks. I am so excited. I also have an old sewing table that is getting a new top to be either I side board or a laptop table. 

Really I just have so many ideas for my almost house that I am super excited. Especially since I an chomping at the bit to get my stuff out of storage and see what else I can repurpose... hehehe....

Just about half way...

YES YES YES.... we are just about half way through this deployment. I am so happy about that fact. The boys and I are hoping the next 6 months fly by so we can see Jeff again. Skype is one thing but I CANNOT wait to see him in person. I hate that he is missing so much of the boys lives... they are growing up so much... Jordon hasn't changed much since Jeff left, but Trent has. He really has... he is talking better (thanks so much in part to his speech therapy during pre-school) and he is learning so much. He can write his name and can count to 11 and is learning his ABC's. I am so proud of both boys and the things they are learning.

And I can't wait for Jeff to see the results of all my hard work at the gym and to see how all his hard work at the gym over at his FOB has panned out.

Shame on me...

For not posting here as much as I have wanted to. Life is so crazy sometimes. With warmer weather approaching, the boys and I have been so busy. Baseball season has started, well training has. And Jordon is excited. So am I. We have been riding our bicycles almost everyday. Jordon and I have been going for rides down the road almost everyday together, and it's really nice to have that time together. While Mom walks next to Trent on his bike - he can't quite keep up with JP and I... I think he will get better with time. He just needs more practice.

Oh well....

Bicycles...

So I promised my little boys that I would buy them new bicycles this year since we never managed to get them new ones last year. But in all the hoopla I decided to get myself a bicycle as well. Bough one off my Dads aunt... and after not riding a bike for 15 years, let me just say while I can ride forwards and straight I am rusty on turning and need a little more practice.

Although I did get to go on a nice ride with Jordon down the road today. It was so nice. Now he is planning a race. HA... I doubt that will happen. But I think we have a fun summer of biking ahead of us!