It's killing me :(

This deployment is killing me... yeah okay, so maybe I don't let it show ofton. But it is. I miss Jeff terribly, it's getting harder and harder to do things without him. Sitting on the couch reading a book I just wish he was there to hold me while I read. Putting the boys to bed... wish he was here to kiss them good night, and to help comfort them when they are scared. While I love my boys, I love their father just as much. And the last 6 months literally feel like it's been forever since he left. Now I realize I may have seen him twice since leaving in Sept, but let me tell you that seeing your husband for a couple days here and a week at Christmas does not make anyone feel better.

So what brought this post on... a CD of pictures. Jeff has been lifting weights in Afghanistan, so I told him, purely for the reason of seeing the change... to send me some pics shirtless. So I got the CD yesterday, and seeing my shirtless hubby (OMG serious drool worthiness pictures) looking oohhh so good, has be missing him even more. But while I was looking at these pictures he is not smiling in very many of them. Actually I think he only smiled in one. And he sent us a video of his room... make me miss him even more still because I want to be in that room with him, or any room with him. I don't care where, I just WANT YO BE WITH HIM! Sitting there free to talk to him anytime I want and not just when he can call.

Whats worse is we aren't even sure WHEN he will be home. He have a kind of idea, but the unit has not told them a for sure when, supposedly they will be telling them when they will be coming home in a couple weeks. I HOPE!

Didn't make it to the gym...

But I did make it to home depot to buy mulch and garden soil, and than to target to get my Hubbys birthday present. I am gathering it all this week so I can send it to him early next week and hopefully he will get it by his birthday May 15th.

I will say that hauling 10 bags of soil and 5 bags of mulch feels like a workout. I may go for a bike ride in a bit. Even though it is insanely windy!

I also have been a little slack with keeping track of my WW points. So today I bought a bunch of smart ones for breakfast and lunch! Wahoo... that will take out the guess work for those two meals. Thank goodness, because I need to get back to losing good at a steady rate. Next on my agenda it to get in a very good workout! I think I am going to research and find a routine that will be the best workout for me.

Where the heck have I been...?

I have been going crazy. I have been busy, and I have been dealing with trying to get everything together and credit scores to where they need to be so that I can buy a house. I have found the house of my dreams, a cute little ranch with 3 bedrooms, and a 3 car garage on a little under 4 acres. I am hoping that scores will be raised and ready and this house will still be available. But for now, I am on a mission. A mission to save $10000 by Sept 1st. I have things set up to track my progress with our bank that is linked to the savings account, I have looked at what needs paid every month, and what doesn't and I think I can realisticly save $2000 a month.

Heres to hoping... things work out because man do I have plans. I have ideas on repurposing a couple dressers, one to be a TV stand, because I just can't find one that is what I want, and another to be an entryway bench with storage and coat hooks. I am so excited. I also have an old sewing table that is getting a new top to be either I side board or a laptop table. 

Really I just have so many ideas for my almost house that I am super excited. Especially since I an chomping at the bit to get my stuff out of storage and see what else I can repurpose... hehehe....